Bye Bye CHEVY HELLO NEW CAR

Today was a big day for us in the Lurcook home. We woke up extra early and headed to a car dealership where I got to choose myself a new car of coarse I had to say good bye to my brand new Chevy Equinox but I welcomed a cherry red Dodge Calliber!!! Here are some pictures!!!!!! I swear I have the best husband he let me take the wheel and choose what I liked he is the best and I AM SO EXCITED!!!

Redbook Words Of Wisdom

This needs to explanation I totally and one hundred percent completely agree with this article and had had had to post it.............There is absolutley NOTHING wrong with sharing accomplishments, achievements and milestones with friends and family but when you start saying oh my baby is smart,funnier,more mature or more beautiful then any baby it blows my mind how stuck up those mothers sound and which is not true every baby is beautiful and smart and DIFFERENT when women post what there kids say every friggen momment it is just stupid and so I said it I really like this Redbook Magazine I get it every other month from my freebie site and it is a magazine you will read front to back it is filled with things women go through but never say there is advice and the people from the show "The Doctors" answer questions and when they have celebrities they ask about family and not about gossip which I LOVE so if you have not read one DO PLEASE you wont regret it

Birthday Boy!!!

My little baby is turning TWO I can't believe this I feel like it has gone by to fast. He was born ON easter almost two years ago it was the best easter EVER and he was the first born on easter so the doctors gave him a special bunny I really want to get pictures of him and his bunny this year but have not had the time to even plan a party.Brandon and I don't have any friends here with kids or know much of anyone so we usually never plan "BIRTHDAY PARTIES" like at a indoor play place or anything like that but one day we will Ryan has big birthday on the 12th and so far we have nothing what so ever planned we might end up just taking him to the park but on another note I have tried my best at taking pics of what will be Ryans Two Year Pictures and here are some for you to see!!

Oh what a day

Today I woke up like I usually do to my kids and husband struggling to wake me up so we could head to the gym....as soon as I got back from VA I was determined to hit the gym as many times as I could and the other day I did 140 sit ups!! my abs still hurt but I have to say going to the gym in the morning not also gives me a burst of energy but my husband loves having the company even though we usually split up we always do our abs together haha after that it was still really really early so we made breakfast we had a feast and then we rented a nice movie and we all watched it together after that the hubby and I did some car searching you gotta be prepared when your buying a car!!!!!! today has been wonderful I had such a great day with my little family I can't wait till tomorrow I hear we might have a pretty day coming up I am ready for it summer can't come any quicker

I did it......

Today was not one of my best but the kids took a nice nap Cadon went upstairs and said he was going to nap in his big boy bedroom I don't really think he did but he stayed up there for an hour and I got to talk to my best friend for a bit after the naps I forced myself to get out of the house and play outside with the boys so we actually drove to one park and then when we got home the kids and I wanted to walk to a few others while they drove the car and we did I met a few local mothers and had a very good day I hope summer comes fast I need to at least be able to enjoy the outdoors even just the front yard

A nice day

It's finally a nice day the sun is out and the kids are out playing but I have had all my energy taken away I find myself cleaning non stop which keeps my mind away from all the emotions I have and I love spending time with my kids but I get so upset feel so alone I quickly want to rush home and find something to take my mind off of what I feel I don't want to go out I never have anything to do I look forward to 7pm so I can give the kids a bath and get them ready for bed not because I want to get them to sleep because it is something to do that I can put my whole energy into and focus on....which takes time and I am with my kids I think we go to Walmart everyday and that is the most we EVER do we never have plans nor have anyone to hang out with never get invited out or have anyone to talk to I am not myself anymore and am not even with Brandon and before I go on I would like to say this is my blog and my life I don't embarrass ANYONE my friends and family are the only who read this and I want to write how I feel it helps ME makes me feel better to vent sometimes because I am holding so much in I just get sad and have no one to talk to I am tired I am in constant pain everyday living with Fibro I don't care what people think about "medication" and me taking it because they dont know how it feels to live with this HORRIFIC pain where you want to drop to your knees and just cry where it hurts so much I shake and almost faint so if you have a comment about me or about what I write email ME don't talk to every one and guess what I am actually talking about and what it means when I say I am sad I don't embarrass my husband in anyway I could write the most embarrassing detail about myself and my husband would say screw what people think you are you and don't hold back anymore this is my therapy writing and I don't have to hear an opinion right back I don't get judged when I am writing after people read it maybe but it makes me feel free and right now I am trying to force myself to get the energy to take my kids somewhere but I know the only place I want to be is in my house...this post will be staying up and wont be taken down for any reason

Potential

I aspire to do many things I read blogs all the time about crafts and DIY things my favorite are the fugalistas and it has me thinking maybe I can turn my blog into something like that and have it sponsored and get more readers right now it is to show my friends and family what we are up to and to log all the fun things we do but I have been getting more and more emails and letters about my blog from companies I have been sending them the link and actually have been getting tons of exclusive freebies because I let them know I "MOMMY BLOG" so now I have decide where I want this to go and I am tired of watching what I write because of what people "think" it means and what they turn it into I am done being someone else and want to be myself I am a loud,outspoken and very opinionated person I am very caring and family means the world to me but I try to please everyone but myself watch what I say and keep my feelings inside but NOT ANY MORE I want this blog to be about me 100% I am an adult and I sometimes let a bad word slip out I am a very random person and random as in I have an amazing imagination and when I have a thought it comes out which I love about myself and this blog from here on out will be about myself my feelings and my family and no more holding back and I am proud of myself and the person I am so take it or leave it

Saying Goodbye

It was very hard to say goodbye I dropped to my knees after the security check point and just cried with all my babies we even hd to beg for permission to let my child run back and give my family a hug and kiss one last time which they did but only him but here are some pictures right before we left to the airport and the saddest thing was to see how Ryan reacted to leaving his cousin I think he made his best friend and the last picture at the bottom just breaks my heart..........they just did NOT want to say goodbye

The Most Beautiful

I am writing this post because all I have been able to think about since I left VA has been my beautiful niece she IS the most beautiful baby girl I have ever seen she is the sweetest girl and I am so amazed by her I am such a proud auntie(Titi) as my family says soOOOOoo here's to you baby girl TITI LOVES YOU and here are some pics so you can see what I mean.......BEAUTIFUL

Memories I will never forget

Here are some pictures of moments I will never forget one is of my father and Cadon playing Wii tennis and the others are of my mom and the babies making pancakes nothing beats watching your kids with their Nana making pancakes for breakfast

Toothless

Well if you didn't know yet my little man has lost his first tooth and another will be ready soon here are some pics I took the day he lost his first baby tooth

My Big Boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have to brag a bit about my little men they are so amazing in every way and are growing up so fast I really want to just freeze time but I can't.......Cadon is so so so smart he picks up stuff like a sponge he has problems pronouncing words but he knows so much he is constantly asking how things are made and where stuff comes from he knows how to read most words he can write and say his ABC's he can count very well and now he is going to school this year I am so proud of the little boy he has become and it makes me so happy also Cadon lost his first TOOTH in VA and he took it like a champ he just handed it over to me and I was the one who freaked out and threw him over my shoulder to run him inside thinking he had knocked it out haha and now he has another tooth ready to come out I give it two days then the tooth fairy will be coming!! then there is Ryan who JUST started talking and if it wasn't for his baby cousin Kylina I don't think he would had started to talk at all but on our trip to VA he wanted to communicate so bad just like her and he caught on!! and he is constantly asking me to let him go potty like his big brother but I don't think I am ready to potty train just yet my boys are so so so smart I am so lucky to have such wonderful angels



On another note Jacob,Krystal and Kylina got the kids a few things and I wanted to share with every one First they got Cadon his "DREAM BEDROOM" everything Transformers and he is so so so excited to sleep in his big boy bed we got it set up last night and he slept till about 10am in it then they got Ryan a truck that is the neatest thing I have ever seen it is about the size of Ryan and I know he can't wait to get it on his birthday in about two and a half weeks so here are a few pictures so everyone can see

Family Vacation

As most of you know we were on vacation for a while we had so so so many ups and downs and made so so so many memories. The day of our trip to good ol VA was very rough we were ready and feeling good but that morning I felt like my stomach was not right at first I thought it was just me being nervous or anxious but then Cadon and Ryan started to complain about not feeling well next thing you know its about time to go and Ryan is throwing up everywhere as soon as we got there we plagued the house with our stomach bug it took weeks to get back to normal and everyone got it I mean everyone and there family after that we had a rough time we had three deaths and it seemed like we couldn't catch a break my mother was so busy making funeral plans our vacation took a halt and we still had not had time to spend much family time all together but the funeral seemed to bring us closer and in the end it made us come together and I will never forget the strength my parents showed me while going through devastation I am so glad to have the parents I have they are the best most caring people alive they treat everyone like family and would go out of their way to help a stranger and anyone they know they don't judge people and they make everyone feel comfortable enough to be themselves all the time I love them so much and am so lucky to have them! The week following this we headed to The Great Wolf Lodge and stayed a night because of my amazing thinking I was able to get Krystal,Jacob and Kylina to come along for free if not it would had been 49 dollars a person to just enter anyway we spent all day at the water park and the kids were so excited all day they told me "thank you!" and "I am so happy right now" my heart melted after a long day of swimming we went out for dinner then headed back to get showers and hit the giant Arcade before it closed and it seemed like it was the place to be every person at the hotel at that time of night was walking around the arcade in PJ's it was a very funny sight to see so we joined them and played for hours we had to leave after we realized we had put a good dent in our pockets just playing games and the kids were getting restless we headed to the room and watched a movie the boys took till 1am to fall asleep and Kylina stayed up till 6am NO KIDDING but we were told we were allowed to bring alcohol to the lobby and they had a huge fireplace set up with games for anyone and Krystal and I enjoyed a nice bottle of wine I will never forget that place and I recommend it for anyone planning a trip with kids it is tailored to families with small kids and has so much to offer other then it being 600 a night it is SO WORTH IT !!!!!!!!! After our fun weekend the weather got up to the 90's and Krystal and Jacob took me and the kids out to the beach I have to say I miss the beach so much and I can't wait to go visit again just to walk the oceanfront again we had so much fun in VA and only about a week we spent out with the family due to being sick and unforeseen things happening and the worst thing that happened was Cadon being rushed to the hospital he had been poisoned because he was sick and woke up at night thinking the liquid scent was a drink and was to afraid to tell me till I found it where it was not supposed to be I called poison control and zoom off we went we got there and they treated us great Cadon was so dehydrated he looked like a ghost and the doctors were so worried it took a ton of digging to find a vein which I had to watch happen and then they had to do a bunch of procedures to him that I do not wish to ever talk about or see done on my kids ever again but by the end of that horrible day he was able to go home and I thank god for that...and that is it for my post we had a blast met so many new people and I am so lucky to have the family I have they are my world and I love each and everyone of them

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