Rheayn

Happy Birthday from all of us we love and are thinking of ya!! see you soon girlie

Last Night

Last night I was trying to come up with a really cool way to personalize our Christmas Cards and I decided to paint I haven't really tried to something this big or by hand but I had faith in myself and it took hours and hours to do BUT IT CAME OUT AMAZING I just started painting last night and since I can draw pretty much anything as long as I can see the picture in front of me I decided to do really cute blocks and I would paint reindeer's on them I love love love how they look I will post pics up later of all my fun crafts and also of my hair!! aunt lisa is coming over to dye my hair I can't wait

Nice and CLEAN!!

The boys just had a shower and are nice and clean Cadon wanted me to take pics of them in their matching jammies and I will post them for you to see...OH and they insisted on wearing beanies

69 DAYS!!

I AM NOW COUNTING DOWN TO MY VACATION TO VIRGINIA ONLY 69 DAYS THANKS MOM AND DAD THE KIDS AND I CAN'T WAIT TO GO..I AM A LITTLE SCARED TRAVELING ALONE WITH TWO KIDS BUT I CAN TOTALLY DO IT AND NOW I JUST FOUND OUT THE HUBBY HAS VACATION TIME SO WE WILL SEE IF HE CAN MAYBE FLY OUT TOO!!!


we will be going to the Great Wolf Lodge in VA when we visit and since its an indoor water park its perfect I CANT WAIT

Ryan's ROOM Craft

Today I decided to do a craft with the boys and I drew some pictures of birds and started to cut I wanted it to go in French Frys room and I think it will go great in his room tell me what you think?!!!

A GREAT DAY

Today I woke up feeling like it was going to be nothing like yesterday I was going to smother my boys with love and just play. I woke up and Brandon was down stairs with the kids they were laughing and I could hear them all talking to each other which made me so happy did I mention they let me sleep in till 10!!!! I got down stairs and watched the kids play daddy's "BOOM BOOM GAME" and I just sat there and yelled "you go baby!!" and "GET THEM!" hahaha he loved it and after that we watched a movie on tv and I made lunch so I could eat with the hubby before he left for work after he left we all went outside to play the kids had so much fun and we stayed out there for a couple of hours now its snacks and uploading pics from today


As for Christmas I do not know what we will be doing yet I don't know the hubbys schedule all I know is we are going to stay in Christmas day and put the fire place on and TEST OUT ALL THE TOYS I am already getting Video Tapes and stuff ready to take tons of video and pics so I can remember our first Christmas in our first house!

My Boys

The past week has come and gone and I have been on the go we do not have a dishwasher and I am a worry horse I worry about every possible thing to where it consumes me and I become paralyzed with sadness or just stress I spend all day cleaning and every night I depend on my husband to snap me out of it...he tells me I am the best wife and he constantly tells me how much he loves me how he works so hard because he WANTS me to stay home with the boys he feels safe knowing I am taking care of them and it warms my heart my husband and I have been so close lately and I hear the most cause of divorce and strain on a marriage is due to worry about money and even though we worry and sometimes it gets really scary my husband and I get closer with our worries and I have been so happy with him he is truly my best friend I stay up late just to see him and see how his day was to tell him I love him and that I am so proud of him every night but with all the stress I carry through the day I find myself spending all my time cleaning trying to make the house "clean" and I feel best when it is all done and I find I can think and relax but it is never done and by the end of the day I am wondering how I could do this to myself to the boys just get consumed with cleaning I have not spent any one on one time with them tonight my baby asked me to please just stop cleaning and relax he told me he loved me and he was very sorry for being so mean and I told him I was sorry for forgetting to spend time together the past few days and he fell asleep it hit me like a ton of bricks I am done stressing about my house I always have fun with my boys and I make it a priority to spend quality time with them but the past week has been terrible I feel like such a bad mom how could I let the little things get to me and forget about my beautiful little boys I thank god for them they are blessings and without them my world would fall apart I needed to vent and this is what this is but what I will promise to do is to forget about the house every once and a while and say screw it if I have to set everything aside to spend time with the ones I love I will life scooped me up and took me for a ride but I am truly blessed to have my boys I love you Brandon,Cadon and Ryan you are my heart and I will never let a day go by without letting you know how much you mean to me



Spend as much time with your little ones your family because the day goes by fast and years go by faster so enjoy the quality time and make memories that will last forever!!!